life, life, LIFE!

Oh how wonderful it has been. The past 2 months have been the best 2 months of my life. Never shall i fall back into the temptations of the knife. It's such a great tool, used for cutting sorts of various things, but to the skin its a blade of torture.

For the past 2 months i have felt more alive than i ever have. Josh. Oh Josh. He makes me smile with every waking breath i take, with every simple blink i make. To be in his arms forever, never to be nudged from there. Such a wonderful place to be, safely, warmly, in his arms.

Being with him inspires me more, to do better and better work. It makes me want to go out and explore, to see what i can find. Anything and everything that i can use in a photo. I want to be the best there is, is there something wrong with that? If i can't be the best, if my work is not the best, i shall strive to get better. Work even harder to make my work noticeable, to make bigger and better people notice me. For them to say "Hey, this kids got talent." Right now i am not the best, nor will i be the best for a long time. But im still fighting, im still pushing myself further and further each time. Making sure that my photography can at least be noticed by someone better than me. Then one day, i will be better than them, or at least just as good. Call it selfish, call it what you may, but its a dream. I'll keep fighting for this dream, continuing on in the hopes of becoming the best photographer i can be.